By definition OCD means:
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD) is an anxiety disorder characterized by unreasonable thoughts and fears (obsessions) that lead you to do repetitive behaviors (compulsions).*
I never thought of myself to have OCD but slowly with time I have found all of my little obsessions. Thankfully these obsessions do not interfere with my daily life. Yes, I often feel uneasy, as if I have forgotten something very important, if I completely disregard them, but my day goes just fine even if I don’t pay attention to my obsessions.
So, what makes me OCD?
There are more ways than none that make me OCD. It basically surrounds itself on symmetry, color, and numbers (sort of).
For example, the mantel in my living room has to be symmetrical. This doesn’t mean that I have to have the same items on the left as on the right, but more of the same amount on each side. If there is no room for symmetry, like with books, I have to display them by size, from biggest to smallest.
I never found this to be an obsession but more of the design bug in me.
My light switches also make an appearance in my daily OCD obsessions. They either have to be all up or all down, which is usually impossible because I don’t want all my lights to be on. If there is a way to make them all point towards the same directions I will move all switches. You might say this is my least OCD obsession of them all.
I simply have to have everything color coded. If I have the same item in different colors I have to have them in color order, which makes them looks like a pretty rainbow!! We have the kid plates form IKEA, which means that my covers all looks nice and pretty and all color coded!! From pink to navy blue.
I also do this every time I play cars with my boys. I always choose cars that I can arrange by color, one of each.
Just like with symmetry, I often thought this was just my love for design speaking out loud. But I was clearly wrong. Why? Well, a few days back I decided to choose all blue cars…and I just had to arrange them from darkest to lightest. I had to! So OCD.
This is a silly one. It involves my TV, the remote, and the volume. When I am in control of the remote, aka when my husband is not watching TV, the volume goes either 5 points up or 5 points down.
There is no way I can let the TV volume be simply 13. It has to be either 10 or 15, not 13 or 14. It is just odd. And I have tried to leave the volume on 13 but it simply bugs me to no end. I could try to ignore it but it just feels odd and my anxiety kicks in to the point where I have to go fix the volume even if this means I have to stop doing whatever I am doing.
How do I deal with my OCD?
OCD has responded to psychotherapy and medications or a combination of the two, I’ve tried doing a little bit of both. However, I’m not a fan of psychiatric medications so I began to look for alternatives and read about successful clinical trials done with cannabis compounds. My first thought was; is CBD legal? The first thing I did was to make sure it was allowed in my state and luckily it was. I’ve been very satisfied with the results, I no longer take any other type of medications and the people close to me have noticed I’m not as anxious anymore. As a person who suffers from OCD and has tried several options I truly recommend you to give it try and see how it works out for you.
Silly but, hey, that’s me!
Are you OCD in any way?
* Excerpt taken from Mayo Clinic‘s website.